Acne Update

I can't tell you how badly I want to post photos of my acne but I already have such bad experiences not wearing any makeup in public that I'd rather not show my face on the internet.

Also, I believe I missed some days of taking my birth control because I started my period today and I still have 3 pills left in my pack. I do notice I break out a little bit more on my period because I got new pimples in the beginning of the week; I always have pimples but I don't really get multiple new ones popping up at the same time. Anyways, I still am showing signs of improvement from when I first started my birth control two months ago.

I had very flaky skin around each cystic pimple on my face, and now that I have been exfoliating once or twice a week, the flakes are pretty much gone. Also as I noticed as my pimples began fading I had really dark black heads in my cheek area, which are now slowly diminishing.


...Currently in the market for an SPF and a different moisturizer.

My apologies for the random circuits of writing, It sounds a little displaced...

A Review: Trinessa (birth control)

It has officially been my first month on birth control! I wanted to write a review because I was so afraid of actually trying Trinessa since all the reviews I could find were negative.

My reasoning for deciding to go on birth control and choosing this particular one was to help treat my acne. Very quickly I wanted to mention that I grew up with clear skin; It wasn't until I turned 20 years old that I rapidly broke out in cystic acne. It is the worst and by far the hardest issue I've ever experienced with my body. The most stressful part about having problematic skin is that I felt like nothing would work, I tried chemical peels, natural approaches, expensive face washes and my skin would only get worse. I cried, yall don't know the struggle like this shit is no fucking joke, It was embarrassing and painful, and also, fuck you.

I finally gave in to trying a birth control that would help me and would also be affordable. I didn't want to go on Trinessa because of everyone complaining that it broke them out, they lost hair, they were depressed/suicidal, extreme causes nausea, weight gain and even low sex drive??? lol. Basically nothing good, but I decided to take a chance and I am so glad I did. I have had little to no negative side affects from Trinessa and it has been so amazing for my skin, inflammation has significantly gone down and my acne has improved so much I haven't seen it this clear in months! Only thing is that my period lasted 5 days instead of my usual 3 days, my eyes have been dry/red and i'm tired a lot but it could be from working? I'm unfortunately not comfortable enough to post photos of before and after but I hope that this post helps.

Effectiveness: 4/5 (only because my skin isn't completely clear lol)
Ease of Use: 4/5 (only because I am forgetful, and I don't take it on time all the time)
Satisfaction: 5/5

Selfish

I think that having a boyfriend can be very troubling at times because you literally don't want to do anything else but be with them all the time. I know that this is a normal feeling but I really don't want to do anything. I don't want to go to work and I especially don't want to go to school. I want to stay in bed with my boyfriend and do nothing. I wish things like these were possible, I don't want to deal with societal things. Thinking about doing boring things like studying years for a boring job makes me want to cry.

Stuck

I haven't got anything important to update you, or for personal reasons, anything to reference back to. I'm pretty much stuck right now, I'm not moving forward, and I have no goals. School is fucking boring as hell and has sadly become routine for me. I did however manage to receive another email from the Honors Society and I'm finally going to join, just to make myself feel better. Now is definitely the time to finally read that play my friend lent me an entire year ago and listen to some new albums.

Been back tracking to 2006 and have been listening to Carnavas by Silversun Pickups, what a god damn good album. I would listen to this album nonstop my freshman year of high school, my sister actually owned the physical cd, haha who buys albums anymore huh? Lazy Eye is sort of just a classic.

Here are my favorite songs:

Well Thought Out Twinkles
Checkered Floor
Little Lovers So Polite
Dream Tempo 119

Line Play

My friend got me to download this cute lil app, and I have been having so much fun decorating my house! What do you think?

Its a work in progress but its getting there. I'm low on money so decorating is tough; Everything is so expensive that I'm actually considering buying 'gems' with real life money to get some more stuff, dumb and pointless I know... ;~;

So Lazy

I am becoming more and more lazy, I have no idea how to get myself out of this slump, It's been well over a year now and I am just not passionate about any life long goals.

I have however been making sure I enjoy the way I'm spending my time and company. My life is so chill right now cause I just don't give a shit about anything, at all, no virtues man, none.

Cool

I got promoted to a key holder at my job, I am so excited!!!! I definitely feel like I was ready for the responsibility and I'm so glad It happened here at Lush.