I'm going to see the Arctic Monkeys live!!!

I recently just opened a new bank account after canceling with my previous bank because I kept having problems. I even applied for my first credit card which I really hope I get approved for, but I have a feeling I won't. August is almost coming up which means I will be going back to school and I'm really nervous but very confident in myself this time around. I am also finally seeing the Arctic Monkeys live and I am beyond fucking excited!!! The show is in LA and I'll be joined by an old mate from high school whom I haven't seen since then, it'll be fun hanging out with just girls which I honestly don't do often, I mean just hanging out in general doesn't happen for me much. I really want to go to Lemonade and also get the chance to eat a sushi burrito while I'm out there.

Okay but honestly just fan girling here, I'm going to see THE Arctic Monkeys live!!!!! Oh my god!!!! I don't even think I was this excited to see The Killers and I've been waiting years to see them play live. I don't even have a specific song I would like to hear from them because I know it'll probably be the best concert I've ever been to, aghhhh wow I just can't believe I'm going. 

Trinessa: Acne Update (part 2)

Alright I’m getting straight to the point, TriNessa is definitely working. In fact it is the only thing helping my acne because I am using the exact same products before I turned to birth control.

My acne has completely diminished on my left cheek and I have two cystic pimples on my right cheek but I am confident in saying that after these two pass I will have smooth skin. This doesn’t mean that my skin looks awesome or anything because I have some scarring to fix, mostly discoloration. I will post photos of before and after once I feel that I've got most of my scarring under control. 

I have gained weight but hasn't reached an unknown territory. However I have been taking precautions and stopped drinking soda -this is the only sacrifice I’ve made so far…

Also, my curiosity in makeup has grown and I definitely want to invest in some good make up, ooo its so exciting!!! 

What is Cool?

Being female I deal with a lot of self esteem issues and I often shame myself (in some sort of way) for the way I look. It's unfortunate that sometimes I would even prefer to look a certain way than exceed in something much more complex. 

Luckily, I don't engulf myself with bullshit like this all of the time, but it’s upsetting to see that I would even think that way. Appearance is so important that my thought processes aren’t even important to some people. Like most I grew up believing that its what’s on the inside that counts but as I grew older that became less and less important. In grade school (middle school and up) the most exciting thing about starting a new school year was 'back to school shopping'; I decided who I was going to be and how I was going to be portrayed by others all in the way I looked. I never gave a shit about what I was going to learn (its mandatory anyways), or what my goals were. Eventually I did, my future had always been very important to me and I wanted to be successful, but why did it ever slip my mind?

I'm not saying that we shouldn't care about what we look like, because for a lot of people it makes them happy. But what I am saying is that image has become much more important than it should be. It stops me from interacting with others; it stops me from doing what I want and my confidence! Which affects the way I think, the way I feel, literally the way I approach everything in life. People deserve to be heard before they are judged but it’s not that way, it's fucked up and honestly old.

Birthdays

I am 21 now, this happened June 25th and I'm very glad it finally happened for more than obvious reasons. I have had a really hard time being who I am at 20 years old, I felt exceptionally unlucky. 

As 20 went along, a lot of unfortunate things kept happening to me that have never happened before. It confused me and I questioned what I was doing and where I was going (I still do). Everything was sort of falling apart, my grades were going down and my dog was slowly dying; I didn't notice how upset I was until It began to show on my skin. When things finally just fucked up, It made me hate everything.

Now that I've been out of school and seeing some improvement on my skin it's helped reassure myself that I'm okay and that failing is okay. I know that I am practically the same as I was just a few months ago but it's always comforting having some sort of starting line.

How Do I Put This?

I was never good with words, which is the reason why I never pursued writing, but I still want nothing more than to be effective in when I speak or write. Effective in the way, that when I decide to explain my thought processes, others can understand my arguments.

With things that mean the most to me I want to be non biased so that those who disagree with my ideas can still hear me out. I personally believe it takes a lot in a human, a species who tends to be selfish and stubborn (this does not omit me from that), to take the time in explaining themselves and at the same time be considerate of others.

There are great writers and speakers that address issues with so much grace and poise. I envy that because I can get so mean and unfair.

Acne Update

I can't tell you how badly I want to post photos of my acne but I already have such bad experiences not wearing any makeup in public that I'd rather not show my face on the internet.

Also, I believe I missed some days of taking my birth control because I started my period today and I still have 3 pills left in my pack. I do notice I break out a little bit more on my period because I got new pimples in the beginning of the week; I always have pimples but I don't really get multiple new ones popping up at the same time. Anyways, I still am showing signs of improvement from when I first started my birth control two months ago.

I had very flaky skin around each cystic pimple on my face, and now that I have been exfoliating once or twice a week, the flakes are pretty much gone. Also as I noticed as my pimples began fading I had really dark black heads in my cheek area, which are now slowly diminishing.


...Currently in the market for an SPF and a different moisturizer.

My apologies for the random circuits of writing, It sounds a little displaced...

A Review: Trinessa (birth control)

It has officially been my first month on birth control! I wanted to write a review because I was so afraid of actually trying Trinessa since all the reviews I could find were negative.

My reasoning for deciding to go on birth control and choosing this particular one was to help treat my acne. Very quickly I wanted to mention that I grew up with clear skin; It wasn't until I turned 20 years old that I rapidly broke out in cystic acne. It is the worst and by far the hardest issue I've ever experienced with my body. The most stressful part about having problematic skin is that I felt like nothing would work, I tried chemical peels, natural approaches, expensive face washes and my skin would only get worse. I cried, yall don't know the struggle like this shit is no fucking joke, It was embarrassing and painful, and also, fuck you.

I finally gave in to trying a birth control that would help me and would also be affordable. I didn't want to go on Trinessa because of everyone complaining that it broke them out, they lost hair, they were depressed/suicidal, extreme causes nausea, weight gain and even low sex drive??? lol. Basically nothing good, but I decided to take a chance and I am so glad I did. I have had little to no negative side affects from Trinessa and it has been so amazing for my skin, inflammation has significantly gone down and my acne has improved so much I haven't seen it this clear in months! Only thing is that my period lasted 5 days instead of my usual 3 days, my eyes have been dry/red and i'm tired a lot but it could be from working? I'm unfortunately not comfortable enough to post photos of before and after but I hope that this post helps.

Effectiveness: 4/5 (only because my skin isn't completely clear lol)
Ease of Use: 4/5 (only because I am forgetful, and I don't take it on time all the time)
Satisfaction: 5/5