Alright so, i'm feeling alright

yeeaaahhh, i'm feeling pretty good. I finished my english assignment so I don't have to worry about it anymore and I plan on working on my political science answer responses for my exam all day today. Tomorrow I will begin reading the chapters and study the notes/terms he has on his study guide. I'm thinking i'll be alright, I just need some food and some tunes.


Yeah, you know what? I feel pretty good.

 

I'll probably get nervous the day of the test though :o  

NOT SLYTHERIN AY?

Alright so I got a bit distracted from my math homework because I made a Pottermore account lol. I'm still not done with the first book, but I just got placed to my house. 

I'm in Gryffindor! I answered all questions truthfully (I promise I didn't try to get placed there lol) because I wanted to get the best experience from this website. I'm surprised because I don't see myself as a that type of person haha. If you have one my name is DawnQuill15672, I've seen lots of cooler names so i'm a bit disappointed )-: and my wand isn't that cute )-:

Anyways I was overwhelmed with homework yesterday and will be completely busy this weekend studying for an exam! :o ugh.

I Just Really Want You to Know... THAT I FUCKING HATE YOU!

Today I failed a quiz in my English class and I don’t feel okay about it at all. I don’t know for sure yet because we just took it today, but I’m 100% sure I failed it. I’m trying my best not to over exaggerate by thinking I’m going to fail her class, because I can still get an A noting that I’ve done fairly well so far… :T I think…. AAAGGGHHH  

My main concern is the fear that my teacher will make a mockery of me during class. I haven’t gotten the best vibes from her and I’m pretty sure she thinks I’m a dumb ass and she hates me. Last week she used me as a bad example in front of the class after I had written her an email asking for help. I don’t know if she knew that I was in the class but she said “Yesterday I had a student email me…. LIKE NO THAT’S WRONG, WE ALL KNOW THAT’S NOT A SYMBOL” lol like I’m a fucking idiot.  Today she did what she had done to me to two other people, it's just so fucked up man you don't do that I don't care how smart you think you are. It’s really frustrating and annoying that I never have problems in any of my classes besides my English courses! (See why I don’t actually aspire to be a writer) It sucks because I enjoy writing, it used to be a passion of mine and I sort of still hold on to that; but why would I study something that is I suppose ‘difficult’ for me? 

I'm a Loser

Making new friends is really hard at my age, people usually have stayed in contact with people they were friends with in High school and then meet mutual friends. I have only stayed true real friends with one person from high school (not that I don't like other people, but i'm referring to those I actually see and spend time with regularly) and the rest are on my twitter. 

People say that you'll make friends in College and that's true but I'm just not good at it. So far I've taken most of my courses besides last semester with my only friend. When we didn't have classes together I made some acquaintances, which isn’t actually rude to say because I’m 100 percent sure they wouldn’t tell you “oh yeah Marilyn’s my friend.” Most of the time I’ve never actually had a real conversation with any of these people just short questions, “did you study? Do you have an extra scantron? What classes are you taking? Where do you work? What are you doing this weekend?” That last question wasn’t so that they could invite me anywhere either lol, it was more than likely a kind gesture to ask. 

I have yet to find/ make new friends, and I doubt I’ll make any this semester. I really was hoping I would because I find myself missing out on a lot of the precious time of my youth on the internet. I’m taking courses this semester where I thought I’d find some friends who were interested in the same things I was (Political Science and Piano) but that’s not working out so far lol. In fact the only person I know who enjoys my company is my math teacher )-: Also the fact that when my boyfriend isn’t working he likes to spend time with his friends and I don’t want to deprive him from that just because I have anyone to hang out with. 

Sigh* my life isn’t very fulfilling, I really do go to school just to learn and not to meet people in fact meeting new people is never what I look forward to. I want to learn because I enjoy it, it’s the only thing that’s good right now. Oh and my English teacher is a bitch. 

La la la la

I felt like a ballerina last night, I'm a girl so I really enjoy feeling tall and slender lol. I wore my hair up in a bun and some boots, I felt 2 inches taller and really comfy. I met some new people that were alright, (not to sound like a dick) they're just really excited and enthusiastic -which throws me off a bit. I've been craving a drum stick )-: you know the ice cream?

I fucks witchu

All these basic bitches post naked pictures with their ass hanging out and say they're models. What do you model gloves? (I love that Snickers commercial)

I fucks witchu, stupid ass hoes. Go to school or somethin Oh yeah I forgot i'm a model too

Nostalgia because I was listening to my old emo music

I was twelve years old when I went to my first concert. I remember begging my dad to let me go because it was a weekday and he only agreed because my neighbor was taking me. She was cooler and older than I was which made me really nervous because I knew a lot of older cooler kids were going to be there and I was this little square nerd looser. 

Chiodos was playing and I believe Boys Night Out was also, or Armor for Sleep <--- idk really they always played here. It probably wasn’t the best show I could have gone to for my first time because I got my ass kicked. This really did surprise me because I thought people were going to be nice to me for my age, but those little bastard scene kids didn’t give a fuck. I went to school the next day with bruises all over my body and my ass hurt (see I literally meant they kicked my ass). Regardless - I had the best time of my life and I felt really cool going to my friends the next day at school and explaining how amazing my night was and how I even met the lead singer Craig Owens from Chiodos.

He was sitting alone at the area above Jillians when we saw him. We were nervous to say hi but we built up the courage to do so. I told him they were great, and in return he thanked us for coming out, and he signed my ticket. From that day on Chiodos was my favorite band, I saw them live every time they came to Las Vegas (7 in total before Craig left the band) and I met them every chance I could get (5, yeah I’m creepy).

I was 16 and on my way to see Bring Me The Horizon (seriously a crappy band I never really liked them) until I got my wallet stolen; inside I had 40 dollars for my ticket, a note from my neighbor, a Barnes and Noble gift card my little brother gave me for Christmas, and my signed ticket of my very first show. I was heart broken and still am truthfully. (IF I EVER FIND OUT WHO IT WAS I WILL FUCKING KILL YOU BITCH, I WILL FUCKING TAKE YOUR EYE BALLS OUT AND SHOVE THEM UP YOUR ASSHOLE BITCH!) I couldn’t hold in the tears when I found out and I even cried in class. I didn’t care that they had stole my money, I didn’t want to see that shitty band anyways. I was upset that they stole from me what had so much sentimental value. They stole my favorite memory and the note from my neighbor who accompanied me that day. It was a note that could never be replaced because she had passed away.

I am now 19 and not too long ago my boyfriend was cleaning out his room and looking through his old stuff. He came across his ticket of the very same show (my first concert) and he gave it to me. It is the nicest thing anyone could ever do for me, and I will always love him for that. 

Even though I don’t listen to Chiodos so much anymore, I’m very excited that Craig decided to join Chiodos again and that they’re already playing new shows. I definitely plan on going when they come back to Vegas :’-)

Where is my mind?

Feeling really lazy and grimy today.and I've also edited this post around 5 times and I just don't have anything interesting to say so I hope you enjoy this song. You probably already like this song (or should) -I'm just here bringing it back to you. 

Also thank you to those of you reading my blog, or looking at it. I got quite a few people to read my post from two days ago, and that was really nice. I really want to intrigue you people. 

Cute Icons

Today was National Cheeseburger day so my boyfriend took me to Burger King.

I also had my piano class today for the first time in 3 weeks because my instructor was always missing! >;c and I also stole some cute icons from my friends blog. that's really it!

goodnight! ^this one is my favorite^

Decisions, decisions.

My english professor shared a short story today about how one of her students came into her room saying how much he hated his major (accounting), he also added that he was only doing it because his mother wanted him to. My professor told him that he should pursue a career that made him happy and what do you know -a few years later he ended up studying what he felt passionate about (animation) and he's now happier than ever.

We've all been told to do what we love and that we'd never have to work a day in our lives yadda yadda... or sometimes you hear people say some bullshit like "I'd rather get paid little money doing what I love than getting paid a lot of money doing something I hate."

Now, that's great... if you're happy being a starving artist and all -awesome! great for you.

I am currently majoring in Biology and until recently I thought I knew exactly what I wanted. Now, my whole life I wanted to be a writer until I found out i'm not too great at it. My sophomore year of HS I joined this technical school where I'd learn some A&P, and the qualifications to become a CNA and I enjoyed it. I figured hmm... maybe this is what I should pursue; I wasn't bad at it, and I liked the majority aspect of the subjects I was learning. But still in the back of my mind I'm thinking that maybe this isn't what I want. The one thing I’ve always wanted to do is impact people, not just a few people, a lot of people -millions of people! I want to be able to change the way people think, I want to be able to make people cry or most importantly feel inspired. Basically I feel with the career I’m pursuing I won’t be able to fulfill that.

Anyways....

I don't see myself changing my major so this is where i'll most likely stay as far as my general education goes. I eventually want to study to become some type of (human) doctor lol or work with animals. I just hope i'm making the right decision.

HW every fucking day!

I hope this coming weekend I don't have some big assignment to work on ;p I can't do it anymore, I just want to pull my hair out! I need a break. ;__;

People let me tell y'all

I once wrote a speech for my class on education and I started out by saying how I wasn't smart, I just work hard. Things don't come naturally to me, I have to study and read for hours to understand the same concept someone else can. Anyways I remember sharing some parts of my speech to my friend Naz and she said "YES! me too!" and yeah she reads and studies as much as I do -if not more but I wanted to say today that NO, she is just smart.

Naz is the smartest person I know, and I've only tried to surround myself with these types of people, so this is no understatement. It's also no understatement for a citizen living in Nevada either, (noting the fact that we live in the dumbest state) she can be smart anywhere in the country. She literally enjoys technical things; she reads and studies because she truthfully enjoys it. I do too, but not to the fullest degree. 

I believe she helps me try my hardest because when I don't I'll feel like a complete dumb ass when we share our test scores or course grades. I'm saying this (typing this) because I completely misinterpreted what my professor wrote on the directions for our 1st paper; and she totally saved me from writing this essay on a P.O.V. that was not supposed to be my main focus! LOL ugh u__u